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been staying home quite a bit recently, and it feels good. YAY!
spending some time with my parents and all, and i think they really miss me hehe. go dinner n stuff with them, shopping with my mom. refrained from buying stuff when i shop with my mom though. ive been a really good girl recently..
and now..
its finally 10pm!!!
the time ive been waiting forrrr....
:)))))
HOHO. everyone turn on ch U now!!
i can watch and rewatch and rewatch this damn show. arghhh.
HAHAHAHA.
so handsomeeee.
and that kind of arrogance...
:))
hehe
hulloo im home!!
havent felt like clubbing in a while, which is goody good!
yupppss.
dunno why, getting super sick of it? and drinking too much as well. haha.
did a bit of shopping today.
black gold bling. black skirt. cap.
but i wasnt intending to...
OH i finallyyyyy FINALLY got a new phone. i fell in love with it even though i wasnt planning on getting it, HAHA. so funny. i felt so safe holding onto it, so i was just like all right, i reallyyy want this! yupppp.
pretty good features as well, and not too slow.
i was really kinda against v3x, cuz it looked super ugly on ads and stuff, but oh well. a handphone is a handphone :))
YAY.
my dad was damn funny. he dragged me to this handphone accessories cartshop and started picking out those screen stickers, and a phone pouch, for me to put my phone. cuz he told me he's not gonna be getting me another one if i lose this again. cuz i alws alws lose the good ones. bah.
this time! im gonna take super super good care of this baby!! YES, YUPP.
hur hur. look! one of my first few pictureeees taken:
FOOD!!
AND ME! BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAA.
forgot to take one of me and grace. was playing with my pretty cap and took one. butterflies, yay.
maybe i look kinda squashy but see the CAP! pinnk!!
fuck. so happy.
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i am soooo bored!!!
woke up late and missed school. bah. haha.
i want to go shoppppinggggggggg..........!!!!!
finally did my hair so thats done.
and i did my nails yst too, after school. hoho. they had some cheap deal going on, 18bucks :)
but i screwed it up when i got home and i went to repaint some of the little stripes i did. damnit. and some of the crystal bling dropped off. hahaha.
oh well.
meeting gracie tmr to shop!! havent seen her in soooooooo longggg, and i mean sooooooo longgggggggg!
HAHAHAA.
there used to be a period of time where we saw each other like, every day or something. HAHA.
great stuff. from guess. wonder when they wld reach sg. snort.
im gon look for a gold necklace tmr. not gaudy tacky gold, but nice small tasteful gold. HAHA!
and something you'd like gracie.
2 movies on my must-watch movie list ::
- pretty persuasion
- the devil wears prada
gahhhhh!
must watch MUST WATCH!!!!
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went for ben's birthday dinner thingy at greenwood ave. i kinda like the place, seems pretty peaceful hoho.
had fun! and HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN! well, happy advanced birthday anyway :)
gotta be at school by 115 tmr, for some psych research project survey whateverthefuck thing i gotta sit for. its suchaaa dragggg. ughh.
but ive been going to school quite often these couple of weeks, been attending some lessons, so well, i hope ill do well this sem.. hmm. im a good girl now. tmr is sexuality studies!! i loveee my lecturer, hes so damn funny! hes damn hilarious, really. snort.
i dont know why ive been feeling all out of sorts n confused lately, like im walking around in circles and not getting anything done. i thought this would pass after school starts, but it came back again, weirdd.
im so damn tired.. my daddy just told me that i look haggard ........
what?!
sniff. im hurt.
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fucking bad mood.
stop getting on my nerves.
gotta wake up so early tmr somemore. wtf. WTFFFFFWTFFFFFFFFFFff.
so fat. knnb/
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i have this pair of lurbbbllllyyyy shoes, which ive never worn, and im upset!!
cuz today i found out that theyre a bit too big for me. !!!! :((
theyre always sitting in the corner of my room, waiting for me to wear them. but sigh, theyre much too high, even though theyre really pretty..
and so today i slipped them on and walked around the house in them to get a feel. SOBBB. my feet kept coming out..
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loo loo loo i got some apples,
loo loo loo i got some too.
i miss southpark!!!!
and i miss spongebob!!!!
paris is burning
go watch this documentary if you can find it. its a part of the new queer cinema, and pretty damn interesting.
didnt realise new york had all these balls where queers could go all out and dress up, become whoever they want to be, for just one night. to be a woman, a schoolgirl, business exec, roles like these. and for this desire for one night of living out their fantasy, they go all out to become their very own fantasy character; stealing begging starving.
why?
ultimately, fantasy is fantasy and can never become reality. to them, its fantasy; to us, its reality. but what is unknown to us is that the real world is all about going out, acting normal, without people actually realising who or what you are.
i wonder which is more sad: living in reality and being real but shrouded by your own fantasy, or play-acting a role for your entire life blinded by this fantasy we take to be normal and real.
we're living out their fantasy while ostracising them, that's like a double slap.
well, at least they know what they want, and have the guts to stand out as who they are. as compared to the rest of the so-called "normal" people stuck in a rat race chasing after things which construct them and make them who they are.
and so we laugh at them to shield ourselves from our own insanity by proclaiming them as the ones who are insane.
why do "normal" people laugh at people like them? we should be laughing at ourselves.
its a fucking mad world lah.
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what a beeyootifull saturday evening.
somehow, the world just seems a much better place.
smiles for everyone!!
:):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)
just what is life?
im not tryin to be fucking philosophical here okay, just tell me if you know the answer. one of those damn questions which no one, and i really bet my life on, no one, knows the answer to.
is it all just eating drinking smoking clubbing sleeping enjoying life?
whats the point la seriously, whats the point.
im going to try to change my life.
im sick of this lifestyle.
no use trying to discourage me. if you want to, give me the answer to the above question first.
let's talk about eating.
what do you get out of it? be it $2 char kuay teow or $100 steak from lawry's. still filling your tummy aint it. you gonna shit it out anyway.
how about drinking smoking clubbing.
just dont talk about smoking. i cant stop it, but i fucking hate it.
drinking. i kinda like drinking and clubbing, but so? in the end when youre at home, its back to this whole emptiness thing isnt it. be it getting high or getting drunk, whatever, what the hell do you get out of it? defuckinghydration. clubbing, ha! dolling up and going there, dancing a couple of hours of your life away?? or what, socialising, or networking?? dont get me started. snort. whats it in being dressed up all pretty and going there and talking about nothing but bullshit? the clubbing life is full of crap.
how about sleeping.
i cant even get a good sleep these days. i think i slept too much in sec sch. so people sleep, and you feel energised. then? you gonna lose that energy sooner or later, you age.
enjoying life.
how do you enjoy life? by doing something meaningful? define meaningful.
earning money and donating it to charity, or going to spca and adopting a few puppies. i dont know.
or some people enjoy it by, namely, drinking smoking clubbing good food.
sighhhhhh.
what is up these days.
like by going to school and doing well in school shows youre good. ha! in singapore, doing well in school just shows youre only good at regurgitating all the textbook shit. unless youre in design or something else of course.
why else do you think we have teachers? its just cuz theyre not good in what theyve learnt. doh, you think those who teach business wouldnt want to earn a few hundred thousand buckaroos? if they can actually make it, they wouldnt be teaching. so, you know what they say: those who cant do, teach.
so why are we here if we cant even prove ourselves either way?
its back to square one again.
.......
?????
ughhhh i feel like throwing up. puke out all the bad shit in my life.
WAH LAN EH, i need to sleep la, before i get more cranky and think more.
hmm.
got the answer to one question at least...
ughh damnit.
i feel bad now..
bahhhh.
had a pretty good time at mos anyway.
sigh.
never before has someone ever spoke to me or my friends that way, we're NICE ENOUGH not to complain to the management but only on our blogs.
damn bastard.
scene 1: walking through liang court with cigs in our hands after they're closed
-stopped by security guard-
"ehhh, you not supposed to smoke here"
"oh, okay, is there another alternative exit out?"
"ehhh, ya, either you all go by macdonalds, or you put out your cigs and leave now, this eksxit"
"okayyy... we'll go by macs."
"no, you put out your cig here and go out, cannot smoke here, go here this eksxit now"
"...."
-fine, we stub out cigs-
"okay? can we go out by here now?"
-humph wtf look by STUPID security guard-
okay, fine, whatever, then we proceed out.
BUTTT
on our way out, he fucking walks in between me and ann, and goes "SOOO STUPIDD"
EHH CCB what the fuck is your problem?????
scene 2: smoking outside near the hotel just 10 secs after above scenario
- he makes a turn out on purpose and comes straight towards us-
"ekscusse meee? you all not supposed to smoke here after we put barricades"
".................."
-HELLOO??? there's like a fucking thousand and one people smoking right outside the liang court 7-11 and he has to pick on US??-
"okay we're done" -carry on smoking, stubs out cigs and proceed to leave-
"eksscusse mee? you in the barricade, cannot smoke here"
MOTHERFUCKER.
go bother the other thousand and one people la chao cheebyeeee.
dont let me see you again.
.....................
humphhh!!!!
and benny was nice to try to talk to him nicely.. bahhhh.
if anyone has ever seen so-said stupid security guard, he's about 175, wearing some stupid security guard uniform with a stupid red tie, and has a stupid gong look on his face, go smoke in front of him, throw the cig in front of his face, and stomp off. nabei cheebye.
SNORT.
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i see all these happy faces,
and i wonder,
what's lurking
deep inside them.
all smiles on their faces,
yet sadness in their eyes.
what have we become,
and is this all we're livin for.
what have we to fear?
is it just this life we're living.
has it become too weird?
when i see all these happy faces,
but yet they're dying inside.
and do they cry within themselves
cuz they know
that there's no way out.
you know what they all say, and it might sound cliche, but i think its true.
live each day as if its your last. dont let the memories hold you back. so just have fun in life. cuz there's no point in holding back.
like in the words of m1 (har dee har): one life. live it. :)
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OMG im like learning photoshop. which btw, is so super cool HAHAHA.
i know la, i might sound a little retarded but, still!
AND i now know how to take a screenshot!! :D
wahwahwahhhh.
so proud.
hoho.
having a pretty good time downloading fonts and stuff, and clearing pics.
trying to make myself a nice new blogskin now! im gonna make do with this current skin for a while, then when ive succeeded ill change the skin :)))
so happy.
i am a computer pro!!
i am a techy geek!!(or whatever you call people who like computer programmes.) woohooo.
damn, should have gone to sp for interior designing, what i initially wanted to do. see la, act smart and went to stupid cj. pui.
oh yes.
SPECIAL THANKS to DORKY who has been patiently teaching me how to use photoshop, online no less. i dont know whether she reads this though, but thankew you so mucho baahahaha.
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been to school the past two days. goshh, its tiring me out already.
well, before you go all like "oh dear she's doing it again, complaining about nothing in particular", its not just that okay.
its not that im complaining again, but you wanna know how school feels like?
try sitting in a toilet cubicle for 5hours on end.
yeap, that's it.
no shit.
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bahh, overslept for school today, ended up not going, i really dont know how the hell i missed TWO alarms! one's my phone, one's my clock. damnit. but im going tomorrow, asked petes to give me a wakeup call at 10am already! hahaha. ill be up and ready for school! wheeeee.
AND today is my mommy's birthday!!
since i didnt go to school, i had quite a bit of time to bake a chocolate brownie cheese cake for her!! woohoooo. went to buy all the ingredients and I MADE IT FROM SCRATCH! :)))
im so proud yeapyeap.
and it was superrrr yummers!! everyone said so. HAHA. darryl helped me out a little too.
more peeeektureeeeesss
looking for ::
- someone with good photoshop skills.
** teach me how to brussshhhh!!! and paaiinttttt!!!
plspls.
photoshop help doesnt help at all. how ironic. snort.
430 in the morning, outside no rain is falling
thats the reason why i cant fall asleep, hoo yeah
or maybe not.
ladida.
sitting in front of the stupid laptop
its killing my eyes.
and then these stupid songs,
alamak i want to die.
i need to go to school tomorrow morn,
and i doubt i can get up,
but i really shouldnt skip tomorrow,
cuzzzzz
i havent been to school in soo longggg....
nice poem?????
HAHAHAA.
oh fuck. i ate 4days old nasi lemak, because it smelt okay, i know la, i can be a bit dumb sometimes, just a lil bit. i hope i dont get a tummy ache tomorrow, my tummy feels funny. okay, perhaps its psychological.
this post is of no substance whatsoever, just like most of the rest. i just blog whenever i feel like typing random shit, or when i need to rant. oh well, who cares anyway, i know i wouldnt. bahaahahaba.
alrighty.
bye and goodnight/morning.
(i dont really want to die HAHA, its just cuz it rhymes with 'eyes'. i want to live and have little baby boys. boys only, no girls, stupid act pretty annoying little girls, unless theyre really pretty of course, which mine would be. if not id smash their faces in and dump them in the dumpster)
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i dont like my stupid face.
not my fault my face is like that.
more carrotcake smiles??
dont ask whats a carrotcake smile.
just know it looks like this:
:D
afternoon/evening breakfast. brunch or lunner?
queensway.
town.
east coast park. drinks.
gracie's house.
25bucks cab fare home. bahh.
next week: SCHOOL all the way. vanny petes here i comeeee! sorry i missed first week.. heh.
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this layout very ugly MEH ??
okay, ill change it within 5days.
this is easier on the eye.
the old layout was making even me giddy.
snort.
HAHA
im learning photoshop!!!
:)
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am i smart?? :)) im smarty pants.
hohoho
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hi im cheryl. says:
lewser
hi im cheryl. says:
im goin to eat
Your words at best were worse than teenage poetry says:
whatever la fatty
hi im cheryl. says:
...
hi im cheryl. says:
fuck i duwan to eat alr
Your words at best were worse than teenage poetry says:
fatttty bom bom
this chao cheebye, i know i put on weight la okay. i really didnt want to eat after this, but i still did. ahahaha. couldnt resist some korean maggie and toasted fries. yummers.
im like super full now.. ladida.
went to great world to meet grace, she told me crystal jade, knn i walked into the first crystal jade i saw, which wasnt the one she was in. so paiseh can. tell me xiao long bao la! bahh.
went to zouk in the end, for a while, left earlier then usual, which is good cuz im supposed to slp early! but duno why im still awake. hmm. cant slp, perhaps shld go take some honey, i heard its a good tranquiliser. hehe.
lalala.
was in a super bad mood in the afternoon, cuz i was supp to wake up at 3 to register for my subs, but at 3 i decided to slp a while more, didnt learn my damn lesson, snort. shld have just got up straight and registered. stupid kiasu people, took all the good subjs, and the registration period is from 3-10pm!!! what the fuck. i signed in at 345, almost 4 la okay, all the subjs were gone. sighhh.
ended up with one psychology module, and this genetic dunowhat. so im back to six subjs, YAY!
okay, do well do well.
not going out tmr, im going to go popular and buy books, is popular open tmr?? i hope so.
blogger is going against me... it doesnt allow me to upload pics, sigh, tmr.
i made a pretty pretty pictureeee of me and ann! hohoho.
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back to school,
tomorrow.
la di da.
back to the mundane lifestyle (as if its not mundane now, snort). back to the people in hall tees, boxers and flip flops. back to sunnysunny mornings and nights of an insomniac (okay la, as if this is new). back to boring weird people in project groups.
same old, same old.
wahhhh siannnn.
second year already, i shld grow up. quick.
cuz i still remember after O's, i told myself: if i go to jc, ill study super hard and graduate with all As, cuz i screwed up O's.
then when i went to jc, and after A's, i told myself: if i make it to uni, im going to really study and graduate with first class or at least second class honours, cuz i screwed up A's.
then now im in uni, and im still in denial and thinking to myself: im smart, i can pass without studying much, i can get by.
sigh.
one year gone, three more to go. its passing by really quickly. each year more is one year less, and each year is really flying past me. bahhhh.
and now, its my second year, and im sitting by myself telling myself the same old thing i say to myself every year before a new school term starts.
but you know what?
this time, im going to mean it. even if i only last one sem, at least i can say i got my As through hard work :)
one sem, then the next, slowly, step by step.
ive acheived in school more than i ever hoped to at the end of every term, and both times, when i received my results, i surprised myself. so now, its gona get better whooopeeeeeee.
went stationery shopping today! HAHAHA.
bought fullscap paper, pens, files, a paper hole punch, 2 notebooks :D hehehe.
so happy.
nehneh ni poopoo, im gona be better at school than youuu ooh.
cuz, aiyah, you know what they say: new (school) year, new beginning lohh.
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they're drunk on love as you can get
getting high on lust and cigarettes,
living life with no regrets
at least they're gonna try to fly.
they're shooting for the stars.
you and me,
we're invincible together
we can be so tragical, whatever,
we're Sid and Nancy,
Fred and Ginger,
Clyde and Bonnie,
Liz and Richard,
Kurt and Courtney,
Bacall and Bogie,
Joltin' Joe and Ms Monroe,
here's Captain Crash and the beauty queen from Mars.
kuku nehneh.
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fuck la, i just realised im alws complaining.
can someone just bloody hell shut me up pls. pls. slap me.
im not goin for heineken green room tmr, dont bother asking i wont go. im staying home. for real la cheebyes.
omg im like so super tired nowadays, i dont know why.. just getting really sick of everything. its become so mundane, like what the hell is there left to do in sg??
i need some kind of hobby. maybe i shld take up cross-stiching. hahaha. i used to do cross-stich OKAY cannot isit.
snort.
so full, had fried rice at newton after zouk. wah siann. the cheebye aunty took so long with my order, everyone was like almost done with their food! i went over wanting to give her a piece of my mind. i didnt in the end of course, im humji baaahahahahaha. scarely she get the beehive aunty to beat me up.
really not my day today la.
stopped at the wrong stop and i walked all the way to heeren to pee. sighh, cab fares gonna kill me.
then later, had craving for starbuck's green tea frappe but felt sick after drinking it.
then was deciding betwn zouk and hol v, but i went to zouk, cuz i sort of confirmed with grace already, then last minute didnt feel like it, felt like having a quiet friday night. sigh. sat by the river, and stared it at for super long. ann asked me why im alws at the riverside, dunno, i just like it. heh. then grace came with her cam and started camwhoring. got a few pics, will post later.
then drank bacardi neat, vodka neat, knn no mixer, had beer later and felt sick almost immediately. bleck. tried dancing it off.
then on the way to the carpark to find matthew they all i almost got fucking knocked down. this car drove past and one of the cheebyes inside stuck his fucking long hand out n almost touched me. nabeiz, i almost fell down.
then at newton the stupid fried rice aunty took so long with my fried rice when i was soo hungry and pissed me off.
then while waiting for cab these 2 angmohs tried to abduct me. okay, maybe they were being friendly but i was still angry with the fried rice aunty and glared at them. bah. they let me take their cab in the end.
then the dumb cab driver took a super super long route to my place. fuck la if u want the extra cash u say la, i give u extra change. knnb, waste my time. he kept turning here and there, why cannot go from the highway to holland?? he went through sixth ave, dumbass. from newton it shld take just about 5mins or so home la, since its the middle of the night and there were virtually no cars on the road, ccb took me more than 10 mins to reach home and cost 15bucks. never have i got a 15bucks cab fare, cheater uncle.
ninabei.
but TODAY, TODAY i was feeling house more than hiphop. fwahhhh! really really. today's house ROCKED. i dunno why :))
when we went to phuture it was like slowmo yoyo all the way. haha.
heard liquid sucked. hoho. yeapps.
2 DAYS TO SCHOOL. omg.
i told van i wld go for the first day or week with her if she wants me to. im like so nice HAHA. bahhh i dont want to go to schoolll... :(
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just finished watching matchpoint which was so so good, in my opinion.
heard quite a bit about the show, so since then have been wanting to watch it and i finally did! hahaa. (i love british accents btw.)
my heart jumped so many times throughout the movie, i was going like, arghh omg what the fuck please no not now. that kind of thing. when i watch a movie, my emotions must go like that, only then it is a good movie in my terms :)
YAY
so go watch it, its difficult to describe how i felt.
but at the end i was like woah oookayy.
holland v tmr!! well, PREFERABLY. im feelin too lazy for town nowadays. maybe can do a little shopping at the few shops there too!!
we can go to this accessories shop, i saw some pretty stuff there before! :)
and is the xodus shop there still open? i want some heels. yayyayyayyyy.
